…and my mind is racing and my heart is pumping and I am flipping through the book, reading and re-reading, and checking the notes and looking into the book again and I sit behind the computer and think about the stuff I am suppose to do by monday, oh my god by monday and my mind races and there`s not enough air and I am scared and my brain is running around and there`s not enough time and everything will be a disaster and I think of three more things I am suppose to do and I panic and I really panic and I try to prioritize but everything is due monday and so everything has to be done now, now, now goddamit, now! and I panic and now I really panic and I just don`t know what to do anymore and then…